New Sense of Love

May 17th at 2:20 am, I witnessed a miracle like one I’ve never witnessed before. Overwhelming feelings of happiness, joy, and love raced through me all at once like never before. It is a day that will forever be etched in my memories as my wife Shelby and I welcomed our perfect little baby boy, Ryatt Boyd Vezain into this world. There for a minute the world stood still! Nothing else mattered, it was pure bliss. I couldn’t stop smiling when they laid the little man on his mother’s chest and she just held him ever so gently. Then, they put him in my arms and it melted me. I didn’t know a person could love something so much. As I looked at him and his dark blue eyes, his full head of slightly red tinted hair, his button nose that looked just like his mom’s, his itty bitty fingers and toes, I couldn’t help but notice how perfect he was. I just wanted to hold him forever. It was the proudest moment of my life. Words can not even explain how proud of my wife I was. After carrying the little guy for nine months and then watching her in the hospital that day I couldn’t help but just be admired by her strength and beauty as she birthed the perfect little miracle that God had so precisely knitted in her womb. I was so proud of her, feelings I can’t even explain have been born inside of me that I didn’t even know were possible.
As we brought Ryatt home and began taking on this new responsibility a new sense of love has swept over me. Actually, to be honest Shelby does most of it I just do the fun stuff like rock him to sleep after feeding and play with him while he’s awake, Shelby does all the hard chores. She is such a great mother! But, as Ryatt turned two weeks old the other day I have noticed a change in both of us. Since he showed up he is the first and foremost of our attention. His mother and I would do anything for the well being of that kid. As a new parent I would go to the deepest depths and not even second guess it for my child. I would give up everything to make sure our boy has everything he needs to succeed. I know from here on out will be a learning experience like none before and there will be times that I will make mistakes but for the most part I have a completely new sense of unselfishness to where I would do and give anything for our kid.
Although I will never completely understand the depth of the Lords love, nor will I ever be able to love like the Lord loves us, I have a new sense of the love he has for us. As I love my wife and my child more than anything in this entire world, it doesn’t even come close to how much God loves each and every single one of us. The way I looked at Ryatt the first few minutes of his life and how perfect he was, is how God sees us every single moment of our lives.
Psalms 139:13 “You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb.” Psalms 139:16-18 “You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed. How precious are your thoughts about me, O God. They cannot be numbered! I can’t even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand! And when I wake up, you are still with me!”
The Lord loved us before we were born and every day we wake up he still loves us just as much. In John it tells us that there is no greater love than to lay down your life for your friends. What did Jesus do? He laid down his life for each and everyone of us. John 3:16 “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” I am forever grateful for this love.
No matter what hardship you are facing. No matter how far off the deep end you think you have went. When you feel like there is no way God will accept what you have done. When you feel like there is no way God can love you because of the storm you are in, remember that he made you a miracle. He knit you together in your mother’s womb. He loved you enough to make all your delicate parts. He knew you before you were even born. And, the precious thoughts he has about you can’t even be numbered! He loved you enough to send his Son to die on the cross so we could have eternity with him, and it is never to late to accept his love!
Ephesians 2:10 “For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.”